Monday, December 30, 2013

At a crossroads

Have you ever had a moment when you literally felt like you were at a crossroads, when everything, every opportunity and every need you have ever desired and aspired to becomes available to you all at once?... and then you find yourself at the center of a 10 road intersection, all leading to something that you want... Now what do you do? Do you go with your first instincts, do you pray, do you ask your mom or your friends...?

I usually do all of the above, except, I tend to not include my friends in my decision. The people I seek advice from are the people in my life that know me very well, they have defined success and happiness for themselves, and most importantly they have a relationship with God. As I am working on myself it is important to always surround myself with people who love God and look to him for all decisions. Whenever I have sought out advice from one of my train wreck friends, it has always been a bad decision. I should have known better... but a lesson learned!

Right now, I am at a crossroads, I have a risk to take, an opportunity to run with and I find myself being afraid and excited at the same time. There are so many things to consider when I look to my future. How will it change my daily life, what impact will it have on my relationship, how many hours will I be working, will I have any free time, will I be able to make the impact that I want to make, will this career elevate me to where I want to be? Is this a stepping stone or just a stone? 

I think what I am most afraid of is failing... which is stupid because you either succeed or your fail. If you run away from opportunities based on a 50/50 chance, then you will never amount to anything. I have an opportunity to be the Executive Director of Family Promise in Western Waukesha County. A dream I have had for 3 years. I never envisioned this dream happening until I was well into my fifties, but there are people who believe in me. I cannot allow this opportunity to pass me by. So, now as I sit staring at my crossroads which consist of working two jobs, barely making ends meet, commuting, and being unappreciated, a resume that is floating in the world wide web for the girl scouts of South Eastern Wisconsin, or this once in a lifetime chance for Family Promise. I think my decision is clear. 

With that said, what am I willing to do and to sacrifice to get to where I need to be. The next year is going to be insane and busy and a whirlwind, but I have a dedicated team behind me who believes in me 100% and will support me and my efforts. I need to remain honest, true and maintain my faith and relationship with God. 

What are you afraid of... what crossroads are you stuck at? Step out of your fear, give it to God and take a risk... whats the worse that could happen? You succeed?

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