American Idol

I have often been faced with frustration or adversity when it comes to a job. Thanks to the support of my mother and mentors in my life I have gotten through them. Just recently this year when I approached on of my mentors about my experience with my new job and my frustration, she encouraged me to write about it. I could attribute that advise to my new found joy for blogging.

I am not one to promote living in the past, however, I do think it is important to live in the moment, digest what you have experienced and learn from it, if you only live in the moment, or live in the past you will not go, take time to reflect in the moment and learn and grow.

With that said I would like to share my personal insecurity as I am facing my new job position. I cannot seem to get excited, because I know that large task that lies before me. I have full support from all of the people in my life, everyone knows that I can do it, but I cannot help but to fear looking like the shocked American Idol contestant who is rejected to their surprise by the judges.. Do you know why they were surprised... because their entire family and friends spent years lying to them that they could sing and were good enough to be an American Idol. I pray that I will not be a victim of this type of coddling support. I don't think I am since I have a very realistic view of myself and I surround myself with honest people who, for a lack of a better word, keep it real.



I pray each and every single day that I will be able to live up to the person so many people see me as. Staying in prayer and in God will allow for me to fulfill my destiny. As each day progresses and as I complete projects one by one, I am gaining my confidence back.

I am not sure if it a result of a lack of confidence or just fear that I may fail. I just must keep telling myself that I can do it. I have all of the tools I need to be successful. I must stay focused, open minded, and in prayer. Because all things are possible through God.